Shane's Story

On March 10 1995 my oldest son, Shane was shot and killed. We were told that it was a suicide, which I knew in my heart wasn't so because Shane had a great belief in God and had talked to many of his friends when they confessed to him that they were considering it. We knew that there was an argument between him and his girlfriend for about 3 hours that night. A friend of my sons went to tell my other son about the argument and that there was a 12 gauge shotgun out that belonged to the girlfriend. The police got behind Shawn and this friend cause they were speeding but they didn't stop. As Shawn jumped out of the car and ran into the kitchen entrance of the house. A gun was fired from the living room. Shawn saw the girlfriend and Shane's best friend run out of the living room screaming and run outside. He ran in and threw the gun and picked Shane up and was holding him. They had to call out the entire police department to subdue him. There was 6 other kids there besides Shawn and we asked for gunpowder tests but they didn't perform them. 33 days later, the autopsy report came back showing 000 gunpowder residue on any part of Shane's body and 000 drugs or alcohol. The girlfriend stated that he had cooked her a candlelit dinner, which he did and that he had ate but there was no food in his stomach at all. The crime lab kept my son for 6 days and their report from Little Rock was that further investigation was needed, 0% chance of self inflicted. The police dept got the report the same day as I did but refused to investigate any further stating that they had messed up and didn't do gunpowder residue tests of the other kids that night and now it was too late to do them. We don't believe that anyone did this on purpose,we think there was a struggle and the gun went off but neither one of the ones in the room will tell us anything cause they are afraid. I pray that 1 of them come to us and tell us what happened that night because they are both drug users and alcoholics now and have been ever since that night. No one has seen either straight since that night. The girlfriend does some demonic things,calling me constantly and asking for Shane for awhile. Now she just calls and doesn't speak a number of times a day. She has destroyed wreaths left by us and Shane's son. taken every angel we put on his grave and literally terrorizes my son, Shawn. I pray for this girl for I know that she has been known to dabble in witchcraft in the last few years and I pray that she accept the Lord and come to us and tell us what happened. It took me a long time before I could pray for her because if not for God I would have lost my mind. I still have trouble forgiving and I fall to pieces any time I run into her or even see her. She took my son away from me. He was my life and this just isn't easy to forgive, if possible at all. I pray that I can because I want to join Shane in heaven one day. This person just does so many cruel things, leaving letters on his grave for us to find, stealing the angel and other things we put on his grave. I have problems understanding why God lets people like her live and takes innocent young people like Shane and others that I know from online and in person??? She steals or destroys every flower we put on his grave. She calls our house and asks for him. When I would fall apart, she would laugh and hang up. She is cruel and destructive to everyone. Yes, it kills me to see her or even see her mom and know that she had her daughter but because of her daughter, my son is no longer with me. He cant have any more children or any more birthdays. He cant hug or even meet his niece and nephew, Brylan Shane and Breanna Shade. I question God, oh yes, I question Him daily though I know we shouldn't. Why God??? I needed him more than You God??? Why my Shane? Why God Why??????? My mom is 83 yrs old and she has lost 2 of my brothers in less than 3 yrs. A year later she lost her husband??? Questions???? Oh yes, I have many questions. Since this night, she has told others there was a struggle for the gun and it went off, that they didnt know if it was her or Shane's best friend who actually pulled the trigger but there was 6 there and none of them had gun residue tests taken of their hands. I took all the reports, statements, autopsy report, pictures, everything to Calif and Nevada and paid to have the authorities there go through all. I was told the same as I was told by the Crime Lab, that it was 000% chance self inflicted, that also Shane would have had to be 7'4 for the bullet to exit where it did. He was 6'2-6'3? His girlfriend has had affairs with over half the police force here. I know there will be no justice for Shane's here on earth but she will stand before God one day and He is the one and only true ultimate Judge. This is all that gets me through each day is knowing that one day she will stand accountable. Since Shane was killed, a friend of theirs brought me pictures that was taken that night of him cooking dinner, etc,etc and he looked so happy. She had made the statement to may that I would never see these pics and I didn't for 6 years. Not 1 day went by that I didn't pray for them and one day they were delivered to my door by someone who found them in a house that the girlfriend had rented and left them. She went back later to get them and was furious they had been taken. I also was brought pics of her and parties she was at in later years showing people doing drugs, drugs in the pics, poems she had wrote of how everyone hated her and a sheet of paper that she wrote March 10, 1995, I did it, now what? I took the drug pics and some of the stolen credit cards she had and this letter into the police and told them this is the night my son was killed, this is a confession. They said they would check it out and get back to me. I never heard a thing? She continues to go to the cemetery and leave things although I call the police each time. She has left notes, destroyed flowers, stolen 21 angels from his grave and even bought a special hutch to keep these stolen angels. This person has terrorized my family especially me and Shawn, my only child on earth. She has told him he needs to get over it? I wonder if her Mom would get over it if she was taken from her and put into a grave, to never get to see or touch her again on this earth? This woman is pure evil and does things so cruel and demonic, I still have difficulties that someone could be this cruel and evil. She has destroyed flowers, wreaths, angels, etc left on Shane's grave. Whenever she goes out there, she will change everything on his grave, leave a note or something to let me know she was there although its private property as we have the deeds to the entire front of the cemetery bought in 1955, the year I was born so she cant say she's at the one next to or in front of because we own the whole front, yet she continues to go there.